02-25-04,I am thinking intently about dating now.
My husband's shockingly unexpected ending has thrown a wrench into my emotional world.
I loved that man with reckless abandon from the top of my head to the tip of my toes and every cell in between.
Since I was 18 years old.
I turned 40 last October.
It's been a long 19 month trudge through loss, heartache , adjustment , grudging acceptance and now attempting to forcefully propel myself forward with his love still coloring my every move.
I remember the shock of his loss so vividly while still longing for a new man in my life.
I ask myself - is there room in here for new love ?
I wonder who will this man be who decides to take on my slowly recovering shattered spirit ?
Does he actually exist ?
I saw how quickly one's life can be over , and I want to live what is left of mine as fully as possible.
There is always hope.
