02-11-04,My husband's manner of death blew the lid off of my world which always seemed so self-contained.
I have enjoyed an interesting life so far , have seen and learned many things even if not always tied to formal education.
I know I am at the beggining of my next adventure in this existence.
I am sad that I could not take him with me physically into the next part of my life.
After much mental & emotional energy being poured into what I thought I wanted for us as a couple & family - everything was unceremoniously yanked from my grasp 19 months ago.
Leaving me stunned and quaking in it's wake .
Leading me to refocus and re-evaluate my vision and expectancies of what life should be , and worthy goals to pursue.
I am still learning about April- where she's been, where she may go and how she'll get there
