12-09-03, These are thoughts I have been carrying in me since before I met him , while we were married and now with a different focus now that our marriage has ended .
I believe it's a continuing process of self discovery.
I am not the girl I was at nearly 18, but this would be true no matter what would have happened .
The version of me that could have been , would be different- minus the murdered husband.
No doubt she lives happily in some alternate universe.
My journey into chapter 2 started with unexpected earthshattering yet indescribable pain on the afternoon/evening of July 14 , 2002.
And it will end on an unknown day at some point in time known to no one but God.
