10-22-03,I should stop watching romantic movies all together because...
too many love myths effen mess with your mind !
I always thought that if my husband died I would feel it inside me ...like in all the movies I had ever seen in my entire female life.
Was this true for me ?
Another love concept shot to h-e-double hockeysticks.
The afternoon my husband was cold-bloodidly stabbed to death- as he fell unconcious and took his last breaths during his estimated time of death ( as written in death certifcate )I felt nothing , I had no idea he was dying..
My daughter and I were doing balance ball exercises
the electricity flickered out for 2 seconds and came back on.
Even after finding out he had been stabbed and I did not know for 3 1/2 hours his exact fate - I examined my heart, trying to reach within and see what I felt in there besides panic.
I did not feel his death.
How could this be ?
~ Another love myth debunked for me..
or another part of the debunking of the "soulmate " concept ?
..I try to keep my own counsel, but then sometimes I notice that I need a new counselor !
And so I throw my thoughts out here and wonder what responses I'll get.
If people are experiencing some of these thoughts or if I'm just suffering from a flare-up of widderbrain
and nonsensical thinking.
