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Today, We Would Have Been Married 21 Years 09-24-03,
~Alas , we did not make it to 20 years.
I want to say at the outset, that I don't have pain per se - I am more melancholy.
Last year I had pain. He had just died 2 months previous and I was still doing some hard grieving.
This year his memory isn't so painful anymore. I am starting to get washes of feelings that come over me that this is a part of my history as a person.
Part of my journey. I'll never understand the harshness of the ending , but I will survive it and move forward into what will be my next place in this scary , yet alternately beautiful world where beauty, horror and such sadness can coexist .
Where in one lifetime tremendous heights can be reached and horrible lows within such seemingly short times of each other .
Where loving someone can be so pleasurable and so miserable.
I was given this gift for 20 odd years , and thought I would have it for much longer , but it was recalled , and now only the dusty wrappings remain.
5:22
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