09-09-03,I can't totally ever relinquish my husband because he helped to form the
person you are talking to today.
I have had to accept his passing , even though I do not pretend to know why
he could'nt live the long life that some of his family
members got to do.
My will to survive this tragedy is fierce .
My capacity to move on even in baby steps is making me realize that I am
stronger than I ever realized, but that conversely I don't understand
the pain & beauty of this universe we exist in any better then before.
None of us are guaranteed long lives, none of us are guaranteed love .
I now see our love was given to me as a privilege and I got to share in his
brief journey ,and that was a gift I'll sorely miss for the days I have
left here.