08-06-03,Today I was looking around the internet when I literally stumbled onto a picture of Tom.
Giving a scholastic award to some military kids out at Andrews.
I was stunned. 
My heart sank to my knees and I was enveloped in a wash of pain .I hadn't ever seen that picture of him .
Pain surged through me.
I am so angered by the lack of an arrest and news about the case.
I am calling the OSI this week- maybe they'll tell me something more than the FBI has.
The aftermath of this tragedy is still playing out in so many arenas of everyone's life .
I am screaming in my sleep, but not really remembering what I am dreaming about during the screaming .
I dream many dreams every night and they are vivid .I always talked or screamed at night- Tom use to tell me to "shut up ! " Then I'd go back to sleep.
Now I am alone and on my own wing of the house so I guess I can scream the house down .
