Monday, May. 19, 2003,Today I begin to put down these etched in stone truths about me.
Here is what I know so far about myself-
1)I am a muti-faceted individual.
2) I am loving, capable and loyal. When I love you- you know about it.
3)I am intelligent . Some is intrinsic , genetic and some is 39 years of life on this planet .
4) Some days I don't know & don't understand jack about this world.
5)I can't believe it, but it's unanimous- I am Perky ! Even though I am living this tragedy , I can still find a way to laugh, live and survive .
6) I love being Steff's mother. She's one of the best things that I ever did. I have never regretted giving her life a single day in my life -after she was born . I had her very young (just under 19), and it was scary , but Tom was the right man to have her with.
7)I am a Scorpio , I fit that mold fairly well, except I am not as dark as most are portrayed.
8)I grappled with an abortion twice.
One child I had ( my Steff - she knows about it ),and one I miscarried naturally. I was married during this time. I guess I wasn't meant to have anymore children with Tom. I miscarried twice. We had problems adjusting to the right birth control method.
9)I don't feel old . I don't look my age . I am ok with getting to 40. It looks better the closer I get...
10)I believe in reincarnation. My husband had some karmic debt he paid is what I feel. Still, he died in an ugly way and for that I am sorry. I console myself with the fact that he died in seconds and did not suffer.
