Saturday, May. 03, 2003,Another set of thoughts came to the forefront to me this week .
The sad revelation that while I will probably have another partner , my daughter will never have another father.
This affects her on such a different level from myself- it's a more intrinsic , core of being type loss that can't be replaced by anyone or anything.
It's hard for me to take that on. I feel so much loss for myself, and to acknowledge that this is so much worse for her .
We try to help each other through this maze of confusion, helplessness and pain of losing a key person in our lives so horribly .
