Thursday, Feb. 13, 2003,Another day begins , taking care of my Dad, Steff and myself.
I feel Tom's absence so keenly every morning.
Yesterday while looking at websites about Bavaria , our romance from over 20 years ago flooded my memory . How hard I fell for that man. We went crazy over each other . The setting was so beautiful and the love managed to survive for so many years. We beat the odds. Although it was never exactly like the begginning was , it was so much deeper and richer .
He was a lover, partner and teacher to me.
Alot of who I became was through being with him. That was both good & bad depending on the issue .
I miss him more than I could ever say. My heart misses his love ,my eyes miss his presence , my ears miss his deep voice and my body misses his touch.
How did this thing happen to us ?
The next time I will see him is at the end of my days on this earth.
I don't know when that will be.
In the meantime , everyday that passes I get further away from what once was and into what will be.
I just realized that I am living through tragedy, mystery and adventure all at once. No wonder I am so tired ...
I am living a mini-series.
What would the title of the drama be that is my life now be ?
